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Wednesday 28 August 2013




Words


My inability to put feelings into words
leave me feeling helpless and frustrated.
I have an endless scope of thoughts, but
lack the capacity to speak them into  words.
Even the exercise of scribbling on paper
seems to be hopeless - a waste of time.

My mentor and friend has the gift of words...
It flows like a river over rocks, pebbles and
sand until it spirals down into the abyss
creating wonderful new worlds, new
possibilities never seen before and
never to be seen again.

Tuesday 13 August 2013



Barren Landscapes And Friendship


I find solitude in barren landscapes and abandoned houses.
They renew my spirit and speak to me in soothing, kind words.
Within this barren, never changing landscape the spirits of those
long past whisper never-ending stories of life, hope and survival.

I watch my friends as they file along a dirt path, each busy with
their own thoughts, appreciating nature’s beauty in their own
unique way. Chrisna's laughter echoes in the silent valley until
it hits a small koppie* and settles between rocks and hard sand.

Corneil’s sky-blue eyes melt into the sky above while her heart
beats in synchronisation with the overwhelming awesomeness
of God's creation. Carla is taking pictures with her new Samsung
Galaxy, testing every new feature thoroughly, while her giggles
ringing softly every now and then, remind us of her presence.

And then there is Vanessa, content within herself and with her
surroundings. She wears a tiny smile everywhere, ever present,
everlasting.
Within myself I find a quiet place where I thank the universe
and God for blessings large and small, including the comfort
of special friendship.



Thursday 11 July 2013


The Gentle Souls


I prefer the gentle souls
people in the right state of mind.
Short fuses and anger tantrums
cause me anxiety - their sole
purpose is destruction.
Certain things are under our control
right from the start - like passion and
reason, they are only the offspring
of what happens in our mind.

Then there is the silly mind games
people play, maybe to mask their true self
or to get a power buzz by feeling in control.
Surely choosing to be a true version of oneself
is by far a better option.
The "green-eyed monster" creeping in
and one choosing to feed it on feelings
of insecurity and envy instead of realistically
sifting through the issues.

I choose to live the rest of my life
in harmony with others, nature, the
universe, god - but mostly with myself.
Thus creating a gentle soul
playing her own little part
on the stage of life.

Wednesday 26 June 2013

Faith Begins...


What would bring one
to the conviction there
must be more to life than
just existing - or, for that
matter, the possibility
of the existence of a
higher power?

If you are not a moral being
simply not believing in good
or evil, right or wrong, one
would not consider any
religious path.

On the other hand, one can be
a just person without any
religious influences.

In every person's life, sooner or
later, you are confronted with
a cross-road. It might be forced
upon us by a forceful experience
or a gentle realisation.

Whichever way...

My cross-road came as a powerful hurricane
destroying everything imaginable in its path,
during this process I realised I do conceive of
myself as a moral being, therefore there must
be a power behind the good and righteous.

The universe fits together in a unified, harmonious way.
Once I stopped listening to the lies my mind's been telling
me, I made peace with the fact that whatever my limited
concept of a god might be, there is something there:

A force, an energy that holds everything together.
This force is part of the universe, therefore a part of me.

And so, faith begins...

Wednesday 12 June 2013

 



Here’s to self-pity


Let’s have ourselves a pity party
throw in some gigantic
slices of chocolate cake
and multiple glasses of wine
play some sad tunes
and while we’re at it,
elaborate on what made us
all so miserable
Let’s contaminate our self-esteem
by changing into victim-mode
and nurture our “I hurt so much”
furthermore, blame anyone else
for putting us in this swamp
of self destruction and
robbing us of our joy
So, do stand up, raise our glasses
let’s toast to all of us
wallowing in self pity

Thursday 6 June 2013





My Heart Aches For You




My heart aches for you, my dear
friend, your tremendous courage,
persistence and fighting spirit are
admirable and left me speechless
on many occasions

Your strong belief in your god has
saved you numerous times from
taking your life, the closeness of
your family rejuvenates your spirit
on a daily basis

When you're gone, your absence will
not go unnoticed, an empty place will
be left in my heart - but your song
will live forever

If there is a purpose behind physical pain
and suffering, please tell me what it is -
everywhere little candles are burning
in remembrance of loved ones who
lost their lives to cancer - and those
who are still fighting for survival

Little candles might evoke a feeling
of care and sympathy and bind us
to shedding tears

Thursday 23 May 2013




Go With The Flow


We can structure our mornings and days
plan each minute and hour
at the end, the universe, the energy 
around us decides what it will dish out

We just need to take what life gives us
and not trying to mould it to be exactly 
as we want it to be

To go with the flow was impossible as a child 
growing up in a typical Afrikaner environment...
I raged against it, when I left home as a young 
adult restricted by the rules of society...
I rebelled against it

Only much later
when nothing made sense anymore
and my days and nights turned
into endless black holes
when the "kick" of ecstasy
held no thrill anymore...

Only then I became conscious of my 
spiritual needs and intellectual demands
the art to surrender, to stop fighting with the 
universe and mostly with myself became a 
selfish need, an endless craving that could 
only be fed by the power of self-realisation 

There is a peaceful yet focused energy 
that accompanies each of us
it is not for us to fight against life but 
rather to work with it

Let reality be reality
let things flow naturally
in whatever way they like

Monday 20 May 2013






Down The Rabbit Hole



If given a choice
would one choose to merely exist?
Endless days floating into each other
a comfortable state of Non-Being.
Or would one, just like Neo’s awakening
after eating the red pill, start questioning
our beliefs about the world
and attempt to discover
what exists behind all illusions?  

To many, it may seem like it is easier
to remain in reality
through the eyes of society, one who questions
may seem mad, lost …  

The world we see is a mere shadow of what truly exists
everything in our world
exists as an idea
like Alice in Wonderland led by the White Rabbit
down the rabbit hole,
I can truly agree 

“If I had a world of my own,
everything would be nonsense.
Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't
And contrarywise, what is, it wouldn't be.
And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?”